Big heart S(u/o)ns

Dear Chris,

I Sincerely doubt you will ever receive this or the possible series of chain letters hoping to -

well too bad about the black- I'm a white gal.

Black hOle SUn I like it better with and as big heart sun.

Also I changed some of your other lyrics- I like 'em better.

It was always such a pretty tune. I really like the accoustic version.

Sting says he likes to give his songs a new dress every couple of years- why not throw in a shoes and a matching handbag?- I mean a new dress without the shoes just - well it means a song, a tune "very breathe you take" which was - musically (like Black hole sun and big hard sun) really pretty: the lyrics just didn't don't work.

Unless you're a slave to juxtaposition.

See now sting redid every breathe you take - symphonically, not my favorite mix but I do wish he'd just have gone for it and gone for the shoes and the handbag. Maybe teh song wouldn't even be called every breathe you take anymore- and if it were I'd sure hope he'd have changed teh lyrics to "yuo don't belong to me" followed his own lead with "if you love someone"- etc.

Anyway- hope my lyrics find you?

@day2daypt2

so - 1stweek of may and I am

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I high tail it out of the library, do not collect my CDs of a Mark Twain book or Eatting (super good film docu-drama hybrid)- anyway my materials sit and wait because the chick freaked me out.

ie: 2006 which I do not talk about and b) I just figured either a) the reservation system glitched or b) the terminal I was supposed to have been at was tech savvy and overrided the system.

I have an b) an a) and another b)- all the same sentence which means I need to wind this down.

So I am simply happy that there was a perfectly good explanation for everything- pretty much- that
a) I didn't hurt anyone by not going to 18 bull street in may
b) allergy season
c) really intense allergies (Try taditional medicines tea and at he very lest peppermint (I've heard cayenne pepper really helps)
d)just a coincidence
e) through security glitch am glad to know: out of town. super glad. total coincidence. still glad though was a little anxious after the whole librarian thing.

@Day 2day (fun how that works)

- -but of course I was always very easily entertained.

Today, tough day on the mat. Long day on the mat- some day i will recover from all this enough that
I probably won't write because I don't much anymore because I just plain don't have time.

I could get flip write now. I am writing "live"- online. Flip is easy- honest is hard and today - and probably only the - only half a dozen times something gets - what is the word?

Okay: the body remembers and I am sobbing uncontrolably and all I want to is run? Escape, etc. etc..

Anyway; I'm putting in about 3-4 huors a day when I can. Learning alot and incorporating some research
the University of Iowa did regarding osteoporosis (which I feel certain I've mispelled and I can live with that) and bone loss.

Anyway- I got the wrong end of the stick recently,


again?

Yeah I know:

shocking.

But due to some kind of oversight or security malfunction. My heart hurts less. feel a little dumb? maybe- but it is not as if it's the first time.

I received an invitation in the mail- for May. A place to be, old friends- etc., etc.. Didn't much care for te graphics and an encounter with a librarian the same week that was way too much (emotionally speaking) like the scene Percy what's his name bk 1 when that chick sprouts wings.

No wings sprouted.

But a reservation on the library computer just -poof - seemingly disappeared.

Three minutes into my session and there's some guy at my pre-appointed terminal with his phone hooked into the big technical tower thing. I asl a librarian...

and that's when things got

a little weird.


Except really it is not because she said "follow me". I did- figured she was just going to log me into another computer that was free manually.

That's what I expected.

That is what would be to be expected- only problem that is not what happened.

Okay- fine - it's really not a big deal- but in the world of me she might have well as sprung three heads - lost all hair sprouted arms and started screaming because she grabbed me arm- kept her hand there  (which was very cold) looked me straight in the eyes and said

"The computer malfunctioned YOU misinterepretted".

Six years later I stood shocked. I covered the length of the librarry so fast. I look behind me and I swear to god she is right behind me- not as light her feet saying something about talking- and I'll get some one to explain.

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